The More...The More




Her nails, strong and beautiful. 
Apparently not unlike her heart that continues to beat this afternoon. 
 (And hopefully, not unlike our faith in God's wisdom, loving-kindness and sovereignty...)
The more her self-care diminished,
her sense deserted her,
her speech failed her…
the more helpless 
she becomes,
the more I think I understand her.
How is that possible?
(Or IS it?)
“No,” they tell me
by their silence and 
careful, well-intentioned statements of sympathy. 
I suspect they are correct.
7-29-2016

20 comments:

  1. Love, hugs and continued prayers dear Rebecca ~ FlowerLady

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    1. Thanks, Lorraine. I love the hugs and cherish the prayers. (I dno't post these for sympathy, but in the hope someone else going through it may be affirmed or helped in some way.) This has been one of the best seasons of my life in spite of the sadness that accompanies it...

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  2. I believe anything is possible in the spirit realm. I also think it is entirely possible that you have an intimate understanding of your mother even now and that perhaps she does of you...right now. The Spirit of God may be communicating with her in ways we would only realize if we were in her situation. Doctors do not know it all, especially if they haven't a relationship with God.

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    1. That's how it "feels" intuitively, Sandy. Thanks for weighing in on this. I can't wait to find out one day (if I'm still interested....) :)

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  3. HI Rebecca,
    That is neat that you have that connection with your MOM and it is more than likely a
    good given intuition. No matter what others say..........doesn't necessarily make it so, the Drs, nurses, and caregivers do there best, but they don't know everything.......I honestly think no one can know what another human being is going
    thru in their emotions and mind, until they have passed on and are on the other side,
    and hopefully that would be in heaven............
    I love that we will be able to hopefully discuss these sorts of questions with Jesus
    when we get there.............

    Hope this finds you doing well hon,
    Blessings, Nellie

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    1. I am pondering your thoughts here, Nellie. They are GOOD ones! Thanks for sharing them.

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  4. Prayers for you, sweet Friend, in your loss. I know you know all the words that can be spoken at this time, but I just ask for God's presence, which I know you've already felt...prayers for the days ahead.

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    1. Yes,we have, Debbie! And thanks for the prayers.

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  5. I just wanted to say I am so sorry for your precious loss. Deb from Breathing in Grace asked her friends to pray for you and I am asking our Lord to lift you up sweet lady. Hugs and blessings, Cindy

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    1. Thanks, Cindy. We have DEFINITELY been buoyed by prayers of friends everywhere. Mother's passing was SO peaceful. I had the privilege of spending the night in her room! It was amazing.

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  6. Rebecca, I am so sorry to hear of your Mom's passing. My deepest condolences to you and your family. I lost my Dad a little over two years ago. I still can not believe it. It hits you in a way words can't describe. Praying for you, Rebecca...amd sending you hugs.

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    1. No, there aren't words to describe it! Thanks for praying.

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  7. Linking over from Debbie's blog to offer my condolences for your loss and to lift up a prayer for you and your family.

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    1. Thank you, Terri! (What a good friend Debbie is to enlist prayers and condolences for our family.) We are doing well and rejoicing that she has been "released" from her earthly "prison". :)

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  8. I am so sorry to read of the loss of your precious mom. May the Lord be with and give you peace at this time and the months ahead as you miss the presence of your Mother.

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    1. Thanks, Nonnie. Much of my time over the past couple of years has been spent with her. I will miss her, but am SO happy she is with the Lord. I COULD not wish her back.

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  9. Rebecca, I found your blog from Deb (Breathing in Grace). I am so sorry that you have lost your precious Mom. My Mom also suffers from Alzheimers. What a blessing you were to her. My prayers for you and your family.

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    1. Thanks, Melanie! I've learned so much from this journey! I will write your name down to pray for YOU and your family. If there is any way I can help, PLEASE get in touch. I hope to "use" what I've learned however I can to serve others.

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