Sane, Simple, Sacred: I Love You Sooooooo Bad...

I Love You Sooooooo Bad...

Dementia has claimed a large part of my mother.

What remains captivates my heart and mind.

The hours I happily spend with her are filled with an odd assortment

of curiosity, compassion, concern and companionship.

Thursday, she was unusually alert (for her).

I wheeled her outside to enjoy the flowerbeds and pleasant sunshine.

I fed her a snack - juice and a frosted cookie.

I played familiar music from my computer - Gaither, George Beverly Shea,
Roy Rogers and Dale Evans, the DeZurich sisters, etc.

We listened to several versions of the ABC song.

We enjoyed watching each other suck on a DumDum lollipop.

Orange and butterscotch.

We joined her fellow residents to play a familiar game of balloon toss.

Mother was able to raise her hands to meet the balloon more than once or twice!

I wiped a tear mixed with joy and admiration for her effort.

I fed her supper.

It was hard to leave. I kissed her and said, "I love you, Mom."

And then I heard it as plain as day--

"Oh! I love you SOOOOOOO bad!"

Rarely do her words make much sense anymore,

but I understood every one of these.

10 comments:

JackieSeptember 12, 2015 at 12:56 PM
Thank you for this story that touches my heart.
Continued prayers for you and for your dear Mama.
Love the love shared here.
Hugs to you, Rebecca.
Love,
Jackie
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Deanna Rabe - Creekside Cottage BlogSeptember 12, 2015 at 9:26 PM
Precious words! I know you'll hide them in your heart!

Deanna
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Janettessage.blogspot.comSeptember 14, 2015 at 8:32 AM
I loved this picture when you posted it on FB. I love the words here also. We are dealing with this with my 100 year young mother-in-law and also so friend's mothers. Your words are truly a blessing. You are a wonderful daughter.
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TamaraSeptember 14, 2015 at 4:14 PM
Oh this brought tears to my eyes! "Oh! I love you SOOOOOOO bad."
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Breathing In GraceSeptember 15, 2015 at 7:54 AM
Oh my...this touched my heart so. I'm gonna try to remember that phrase.
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Nellie's Cozy PlaceSeptember 17, 2015 at 4:36 PM
Hi Rebecca,
What a sweet post, it sure made me puddle up a bit..........and yes, isn't that true we love some one
so much that it can feel bad when they are gone from us............Precious words!
You are a lovely and sweet daughter to her.........these are precious and special times and you will
have NO regrets when she leaves this earth..............
Love and Blessings hon,
Nellie
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Nellie's Cozy PlaceSeptember 17, 2015 at 4:37 PM
Oh, and I loved the picture, so cute and so sweet...........
blessings, Nellie
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ColleenSeptember 27, 2015 at 10:04 AM
Oh Rebecca, this is so beautiful So touching. These are precious moments you are spending together. All my love and prayers for you!
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