Prayer

lately,
my prayers (what prayers?)
seem useless,
impossible to verbalize
and passionless.
it seems pointless
to expect answers from One
who seems so distant;
occupied with matters far larger than me...
yet in desperation,
alone and frightened 
by unfamiliar circumstances and intense pain,
i begged others, "pray for me."
and many did.
one day i will pray again, too.
i know i will.
10/28/2014

27 comments:

  1. There have been time where my prayers felt like chalk upon my lips. Then, the prayers of others continued and I began to taste His Sweet Words once again. It'll happen... my prayers will continue.

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    1. Thank you for not misunderstanding, Mari.

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  2. Dear, dear Rebecca ~ Whether or not you feel like God is with you, or hears your prayers, He is and He does. A lot of times when I don't have the words to pray, I just say His name, Jesus. In the middle of the night when thoughts assail and I can't get back to sleep, I breathe in Je and breathe out sus. It has a wonderfully calming effect on me.

    I pray that you will feel His continuing love, peace, strength and joy. He knows all that is going on in your heart and mind and He loves you dearly.

    Love and hugs ~ FlowerLady

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    1. I "know", Lorraine. You have been through so much sorrow and your experience and comforting words mean a lot to me. Thank you.

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  3. I could have written these lines, Rebecca. This month of October I have just been trying to go with it and to say gratitude at least. I am so grateful for sun, sky, leaves, warm, trees, and more. I just walk outside at dawn and try to be thankful for everything and hope that is enough for now.

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  5. And what a comfort to know that others are praying when we walk those dark paths. My husband and I used to sing a song...

    Have the clouds round you gathered in the midst of the storm?
    Is your ship tossed and battered are you weary and worn?
    Don’t lose hope someone’s praying for you this very day
    And peace be still is already on the way.

    Someone is praying for you, someone is praying for you.
    So when it seems you’re all alone, and your heart will break in two,
    Remember someone is praying for you.

    When it seems that you’ve prayed ‘til your strength is all gone
    And your tears fall like raindrops all the day long
    He cares and He knows just how much you can bear
    He’ll speak your name to someone in prayer.

    Someone is praying for you, someone is praying for you.
    So when it seems you’re all alone, and your heart will break in two.
    Remember someone is praying for you.


    I am saying a prayer for you now...

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  6. Whispering a prayer to our Father this very moment....
    Love you, my friend.
    Jackie

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  7. I couldn't read my Bible or pray except "help". The only thing I could do was look at some scripture cards I had created and printed out ahead of time. What you have written hereIs honest and real. Praying for you right now.

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    1. How well you know. Thank you for praying.

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  8. Praying for you right now, friend. Even your moans, groans, and tears God sees, hears, and, I believe, counts as prayer when it comes from one of His own.

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  9. Always praying for you, precious Rebecca. How are you today? I appreciate your transparency and know full well what you feel. It happens to all of us at one time or another. Father loves you and knows your every need. Cling to Him, even if in silence. He understands and He loves you.

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    1. Clinging the best I can. Thankfully, I believe He's clinging to me....

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  10. Love your precious heart....God loves honesty and that's what your words speak...directly from a broken and contrite heart. I'm reminded of Romans 8:26-27 Praying for you

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  11. "Amen" to what you've written. There are seasons we travel through. I've had times when I could not pray, could not read the word... the only thing that touched my soul, touched my spirit was music. During the dark night of the soul, when I could not sleep, I would either turn on Christian radio or play CD's and listen to music. It was the only thing that sustained me during those dark days and dark nights. I will remember you in my prayers, Rebecca.

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    1. Thank you, Tamara. And "yes" about music (which has the effect of loosening up every tear I have inside of me.....).

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  12. I believe we all relate Rebecca...when the prayer returns it will be intense and joyful...some times we are weary and need a rest.

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    1. Exactly. And I'm waiting for the return.

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  13. I was there this summer. Sick of soul and needing a friend who could carry the baton of prayer until I was no longer walking wounded. I healed. I will pray for you, dear. God understands it all.

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  14. Sorry I didn't see this sooner. Sometimes I have no song, no prayer, no words, but God knows what's in my heart.......and lately it hasn't been music. But it will come back. So sorry for your pain and desperation....no fun to be there. It's good to know that we have a God in heaven that keeps the stars in place.....and friends on earth that love us.

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    1. No worries. God had/HAS me covered. I "know" it. Sometimes, I forget.....
      (I SURE didn't "feel" it there for awhile.....)

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