Hanging on the basement staircase wall at my parents' home
are old letters from three of their grandchildren - missionaries' children.
This one caught my eye a couple of days ago.
Especially that last sentence....
I chuckled to myself as I thought how many times I have been
"kind of excited about going but kind of not."
This kind of "tension" is what keeps God's children sharp--
useful in the world and dependent on Him, I think.
Apparently the Apostle Paul thought so, too
And I trust that my life will bring honor to Christ whether I live or die. For to me, living means living for Christ and dying is even better. But if I live I can do more fruitful work for Christ. So I really don't know which is better. I'm torn between two desires: I long to go and be with Christ, which would be far better for me. But for your sakes, it is better that I continue to live.